It's one thing to say homosexuality is wrong, but it is far more difficult to leave it behind. This is the story of one woman's struggle as she relates it to the Israelites' journey to the Promised Land.

Jeanette Howard deserves our deep respect and admiration. She talks about her own struggles with straightforward honesty. The result is profoundly helpful to pastors and women everywhere. It is biblical, spiritual, practical, compassionate and human. Well done, Jeanette! - Faith Forster, Ichthus

When Jeanette became a Christian she hoped that over time- as others have experienced- she would find her sexual orientation change sufficiently to consider marriage, possibly even children. It was not to be.

"Despite joining a Christian dating agency and opening myself up to many avenues of experience, I could not honestly see myself ever committing to a man. It was time to own the truth. ..."

Jeanette's pilgrimage, often painful, has taught her how to listen for the voice of God; to know her own limitations; to seek for grace; and to discover joy in unexpected places.